I used to think that following my heart to new adventures was getting me closer to my passion, to the one thing I loved and still didn’t find.
I don't know when I picked this limiting belief.
The idea that there is a certain specific passion to be found and followed, a hobby, a job, one single thing that you can devote your life to, it is just that, an idea. Certainly, there are people that have found the one thing for them. But finding one thing doesn’t mean that there aren’t many other things that could become your ‘one thing’. Nor that your ‘one thing’ it is a thing.
In my case, I always loved to do many things. And time, instead of helping me filter and find ‘the one thing’, has brought more and more interests. I even thought about it as a kind of disadvantage, because it was materially impossible to pursue them all. This has been usually a source of stress for me, because for many years I did try to pursue them all. Until my body forced me to stop.
Then a realization came to me. What I love has more to do with how I want to do things rather than a specific what.
And putting it into words gave me peace, it has silenced a question that has been running in my mind for years and aligned my heart and mind in the same direction.
So now, I know that, even if I offer consulting services, I am not in the consulting business, but in the business of creating an integral life. A non-partitioned life, where I can collaborate with friends and make all of us better off. Where I can put all my heart, do things with care, pursue my curiosity, savor the moment doing things at my own pace, take a rest whenever needed and push hard when I have the energy to. Not to constantly fit myself to an artificial environment, but to take the most of our context, do a great job and get value accordingly. Consulting is just a format that I have found to do so.
And taking steps in this direction comes with a deep gut YES, any kind of internal friction disappears, and my life direction looks crystal clear. I feel full of energy and certain that big and interesting things will come. Even if there is nothing certain out there.
Maybe it has something to do with what a good friend reminded me lately:
A ship in harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are built for. - John A. Shedd
And the closer I get to creating my own path, the better and happier I am.
Thank you all for wanting to share this part of my journey!